Tuesday 24 February 2009
Well...today mark the end of my mugging for now...i guess...my 2 paper is finished and MICE paper look ok and accountin paper is a question mark...cuz i dunno if i will do well for it...but i know i am damn stress over this fuking acc paper...reason i failed my coursework and my teacher is like saying if i do well...den the dept will consider moderating the courseowrk grade...wonder how true is that...but i really dun wan to take supp...i couldnt sleep ytd night due to this accounting paper...when i close my eyes...all i think of is the format and formulas and all...then i will like shyt...i forget so i wake up and read some notes b4 going back to slp...then this cycle keep carry on until i going break down...den i went play some games...haiz...then today morning i go revision wif my friends...den i see my notes again...i was like...how to do ar when i have done countless time during doing the past yr paper...zzz...made me panic like hell...But i glad its over...for now i guess...praying hard for my wish...
I shall walk alone... 20:32
Friday 6 February 2009
Well...this post is just for me to grumble...seriously i hate my life...every part of my body is going to break up soon...with my thigh bones fighting against each other...aching backbones that make me sleepless every night...my arm that will dislocated when i overstretch it...i think by the age of 40(or maybe even faster)...my body will be that of a 80 yr old man...haiz..and i dun tink seeing a doctor will help me much and it also cost a lot $$$ where it is a additional burden to my family...haiz...so i guess i will just let it be...
In addition...i seriously hope that things in the family will be back to the past where we are much more happy..where there is not much quarrels and all...haiz...but i guess its difficult now...much as i dont show it...i really care abt this...haiz...yet i dun like to say it out or wat...haiz...even if things cant be like in the past...i just hope it can be better...that my dad and mum dun quarrel so much...if this continue...i guess that ending will eventually come and i dun wan it that way...argh
About friends...poly friends still remain very much the same while i am getting better with my seconday friends...and i hope it stay that way...now long has more time with us since his gf flew back to her country...chen seems rather ok with that...i know he's not in a good position lar...to juggle between his family, his gf and us...so i understand him...i just hope he's happy in whatever he do...and all my other friends too....
Girlfriend...many asked me why i dun wanna find a gf...its not that i don't want to...is just that there is much to consider before i commit myself into a relationship..like eg. time and money...i dun have much time to keep my gf company and i am just afraid that she might not be okay with that...maybe starting she might say okok...but later in the relationship...things will go wrong...den money..if u know me well...i am not really rich and i dun think i have the money to keep a relationship going...haiz....somemore...i think the one suitable for me have not appeared yet...(or maybe it has)...
well...i guess thats quite a lot of grumbling from me...
I shall walk alone... 16:29
